As Salamu Alaikum Sister Suzanne
Here is something that will help you during your difficult time. First I will quote two Hadith:
Imam Ahmad, Abu Dawud and At-Tirmidhi reported the following Hadith and graded it Sahih; An-Nasa'i, Ibn Khuzaymah and Ibn Hibban recorded in their Sahihs that Fadalah bin `Ubayd, may Allah be pleased with him, said: "The Messenger of Allah heard a man making supplication in his prayer when he had not praised Allah or said Salah upon the Prophet . The Messenger of Allah (Sallallahu Alayhi wa Sallam) said:
“This man is rushing.” Then he called him over and said, to him or to someone else,
“When any one of you supplicates, let him start by praising and glorifying Allah, may He be exalted, then let him send Salah upon the Prophet, and after that let him make supplication as he wishes''
At-Tirmidhi recorded that Umar ibn Al-Khattab (Radhi Allahu Anhu) said: “A supplication (Dua) remains suspended between heaven and earth and does not ascent any further until you send Salah upon your Prophet (Sallallahu Alayhi wa Sallam).”
Taking these two Hadith into consideration, I would suggest that you praise Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala then recite the Salah/Dua/Durood Ibrahim then recite the Dua I have mentioned below, then recite the Durood again and end by praising Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala. You can do this as often as you like (after every salah (prayer) will be a good idea.) Insha Allah Allah Subhanahu wa Ta’ala will lighten your burden and give you relieve from your difficulty. Ameen!
If you need the recitation of this Dua – I have the recitation in both MP3 and Wav formats if you Pm your email address, I can send it to you. If anyone needs the recitation can Pm their email address.
Remember after every difficulty comes ease, verily after every difficulty comes ease.
Dua for anxiety and sorrow
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O Allah, I am Your servant, son of Your servant, son of Your maidservant, my forelock is in Your hand, Your command over me is forever executed and Your decree over me is just. I ask You by every name belonging to You which You name Yourself with, or revealed in Your Book, or You taught to any of Your creation, or You have preserved in the knowledge of the unseen with You, that You make the Qur'an the life of my heart and the light of my breast, and a departure for my sorrow and a release for my anxiety.
This Dua is one of the Duas suggested by the Prophet (Sallallahu Alayhi wa Sallam)
“Verily your Lord is quick in punishment; yet He is indeed Oft-Forgiving Most Merciful (Surah Al-An’am 6:165)
"Indeed, we belong to Allah and to Him is our return" (Surah Baqarah 2: 155)