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Ex-Model Converts to Islam
I Finally Have a Purpose in Life
(9 votes, average 5.00 out of 5)
Reading Islam Staff
Saturday, 14 July 2012 00:00
Converting to Islam gave me that peace and security and the
balance that I needed in my life that made everything make sense
My name is Jamie and I converted to Islam a week and half ago.
Before I became a Muslim, I was not a very conservative person, I was not a very good person.
modeled for about five years, and during that time I did a lot of
drugs. And I thought oh, I can do math, and I wonít get addicted because
Iím just using it as a weight loss helper. I will just use it every
once and a while to just keep myself from eating too much.
Ah right! I thought I was strong enough to not get addicted to a drug that absolutely addicts basically everyone who uses it.So
I started doing math, and I would probably give it a couple of weeks
and then I got really addicted to it, and I did it all day and all night
for five years. And it really brought me to a place of complete rock
bottom. My husband at that time had been doing it with me, and he
started getting violent with me, and I was afraid for my life.
I decided to quit. I decided that that was not what I wanted for my
life, and I told him ďI said Iím going to quit.Ē And he laughed at me
and said ďYes, right. You are not going to quit!Ē and I said ďYou know
what, Iím going to quitĒ I quit that day completely, never again looked
back. I didnít have any time for rehab, no outside help nor support
system. I had my husband laughing at me and trying to get me to do it
that I had my little boy. My whole focus on life kind of changed. I had
this wonderful little boy who needed a good mother and I loved him so
much, I wanted to change everything that I focused on for him.
in the day, I could do anything I wanted. I was very involved in
basically the Hollywood scene that anybody would want to be involved in.
A lot of people are surprised that I gave that up in order to become a
Muslim, but the funny thing is when I said my shahadah the desire to do
all those things was completely taken away from me. I used to drink, did
drugs, and all that stuff. I donít want to do them anymore. It is
amazing to me, I really enjoy and feel peaceful in my heart about being a
was born and raised non-denominational charismatic born-again
Christian, and I didnít find answers for what I was looking for, for 31
years as a Christian, I never really felt God. I tried this as hard as I
could. I really did and I never felt Him. The whole thing that started
leading me to Islam was that I got married to an Iranian man who was a
very devout born-again charismatic non-denominational Christian, and he
was mentally and emotionally abusive to me, not to mention that fact
that he was poisoning me, just so that he could control me, to keep me
at home not being able to leave the house just to know where I would be
all the times. So I left him, and that kind started me on a whole new
journey to see what was really going on in the world.
Researching Islam and Finding Peace
|I think the main thing that I liked about Islam was the respect for women|
researched Islam for a while before I chose to convert. Basically, I
wanted to know why people hated Muslims so much because I saw what I saw
in the news. I saw oppression and violence and I wanted to know what
really existed, and if that was the way that Islam was.
I started researching it, and the more and more I researched it, the
deeper I got into it, I saw the truth in it. I think the main thing that
I liked about Islam was the respect for women. There is a large amount
of respect for women and the things we do as women. Our lives arenít
easy. We have a lot of things that we have to think and worry about; our
families, our husbands, our children and we have to bear children.
Thatís really a very hard thing to go through.
you know, a lot of us have to cook, clean, raise children and take care
of the house and the husband. Itís a difficult job. And the fact that
Islam respects women for that, and they separate us at mosques so that
the men are not distracted by us because Islam understands the power
that we have behind, I guess you could say, our sexuality. The way we
look is really powerful to men, and they are affected by it. Islam
respects that. Once I realized that, it grabbed the hold of me, and
thatís when I knew I wanted to become a Muslim.
to Islam made me feel different. It made me feel absolutely peaceful. I
felt unstable before. I felt like a lot of things in my life were just
up and down because they hadnít been decided on. There was no goal in my
mind. There was no reasoning for me being here. I didnít know why I
should be here, and converting to Islam gave me that peace and security
and the balance that I needed in my life that made everything make sense
to me; that made everything real. And it made everything worth being
here for, because I finally have a purpose and I understand what it is.
donít always have the opportunity to meet people that we essentially
need to meet in order to understand them. So I started going to a mosque
in order to really get close to the people and understand them. And the
more I got involved in the mosque, the more the women just surrounded
me and took me in, and they really showed me the kindness that is Islam.
|I want to wear Hijab because I want people to know that Iím Muslim|
never ever in my life would have ever thought that I would become a
Muslim. Never ever! My perception of Muslims was so misconceived that I
didnít like them because I believed media and I thought they were bad,
and never in a million years would I have thought one day I would be one
of them. But now that Iím, Iím so proud and happy. I want to wear Hijab
because I want people to know that Iím Muslim, even if they hate me, I
donít care. I want to show them that Allah exists in any kind of person,
not just Middle Easterners.
played drums before I was Muslim, and just because I became a Muslim
doesnít mean I have to stop doing the things that I enjoy. I do a lot of
sports; snowboarding, water skiing and I still can be a good Muslim and
still wear Hijab.
dad never really knew about my past with the drugs and playboy modeling
and all that stuff. He and I didnít speak for 8 years. He kicked me out
of the house when I was 17 years old and I lived under a freeway
overpass for a week. I was homeless. And all I had with me was what I
could fit in my back bag and my guitar case.
we didnít speak for 8 years after that and he didnít understand I
wouldnít have understood is that these are experiences I needed to have
on my own. I needed to have the pain on my own, and I needed to have the
recovery on my own.
only reason why I started speaking to him again was because I got
pregnant with my son, and I figured that my son needed a grandfather.
When I did come back and started speaking to him again, we had a
beautiful conversation together and we discussed what had happened
before and we both apologized to each other and promised we will never
do it again. So, ... this is my daddy. And he is my best friend in the
whole wide world. And itís something I never thought it was going to
happen. But now that it has, I love him so much.
first time my dad learned about my conversion, I was on my way home
from Sacramento. I had just gone to a mosque up there and converted. I
was driving home and I was too afraid to call him because I knew he was
going to be really mad. So I texted him on the phone and I said ďDad,
could you please try to start having an open mind about Muslims? Can you
please just stop being so judgmental and believing all you see about
Muslims on the news?Ē He texted me back and said ďWhy?Ē So I said ďWell,
dad, Iím Muslim!Ē
father wasnít too pleased when he found out that I converted to Islam.
He was quite unhappy to the point where I feared that I was going to
have to leave. We live in the same home. And we work at the same job,
and I havenít gone back to the job since, but living at home has been
Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?