Hello everyone well this is my first profile and its based on how i truley feel right now. Ok my name is Anisah, Im 20 yaers old, and I been married for a year and 5 months. Inshallah a good marriage, I love my husband for the sake of allah and just for who he is. I have no kids, I want some, but inshallah Im still making dua to have them.

   Ok now you got to know me better, now my peoblem. I am so bored at home, I have no sistas to talk to. My family are cafas but they arent that close to me. Latley ok forget latley try for at least 5 months, I been crying and depressed. I dont blame my husband he trys his best to make me feel better. My eman has been increasing and decreasing going back and forth. I geuss thats from being away from the ummah, I do study but i get so bored that i stop, I started to think maybe if i had a job then i would not be bored, but that would push me even father from allah Subhanna watallah because my eman has decreased again.

  I just now stop crying i got a headache, I dont even know what to do anymore, i got to the point that i dont even want to go to the masjid anymore i know awful huh. I know i type alot i just had to get my feeling out somehow. I do tell my husband how i feel but i kinda dont want to because i feel like i bring him down and thats just bad.

 Please can someone give me advice i truley need it       

Assalamu alaikum Sister Anisah,

Please ignore the "advice" of Sandra.  This person is full of hate and is trying to turn you away from Allah.

I hope you are feeling better soon.  Have you considered doing some volunteer work in your community?  Helping other people can make one feel so much better about themselves and it please Allah as well.  Try looking into volunteer opportunities at your masjid (if there is one near you), or a children's centre or old people's home, or even a community youth group.

Never give up hope.  Do pray sincerely to Allah, He does answer prayers.

Peace, ummziba.

Before I give out replys to current people I want to say thankyou all for responding believe it or not, well Im shock my self I feel better from reading everyones reponse so thankyou truley thankyou!

Anisah 

 Ok, hi kim how are you? fine I hope I hate to say it, because when you said from being bored and depressed, Im putting Allah before me, in a way your right because I would not feel this way if I believe what allah says.

 And yeah I could get a job but i know how i am. Im not the type of person who can focus on two things at once. I say that because if Im trying to increase my eman then me looking for a job and start working will not help.

Your right I am young I should be more active inshallah Allah will guide me but thankyou for responding

Anisah.